I do not know what love did to me, I was stay alone for years without love and without any feelings, made me stiff and hard, and the conditions around me, my mother and all the psychological pressures. I resist depression. Yes, I resist with all my strength. He will not be able to kill me. And as I said before, I do not know why I became so.. I don’t want to be selfish or to own the I love and I do not know why I became so annoying and why I raged at him for reasons unknown .. I do not know how to overcome all this in me, I am afraid of losing him, afraid to be a reason to leave me, I’m not a perfect woman, I’m not perfect, I do not even feel like others, maybe my heart and soul are different from them but I do not look like other women there and I don’t look like successes women ..
I live in a different world in a different family, different situation and in a different psychological impact … and all my world is bleak but he lights up the darkens of my life .. He is the secret of my smile .. I know that I exaggerate in the actions of my actions I am sensitive, emotional and emotional Very .. I do not want him to hate me .. I do not want him to encourage to leave … He needs me and I need him .. My heart beats on my cruelty with him for every absence .. For every moment did not smile to him and I cried for him ..I do notknow iif I should lie to him and tell him that I enjoy the life I do not live, I don’t want him to hate me and move away before we meet..
I love him So Much and I fear him from my love and my possession .. He is the goodness and tenderness that I do not want to lose. I do not want my huge love for him to be reason to hurt him..
I don’t know what to do..I must change.
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